life is finally dwindling down
a road i've never crept before
inching, idling, standing in neutral
greener pastures have passed me by
in solitude i lie along the forgotten path
breathing slowly, closed eyes dreaming
i'll paint away the sadness, madness
red nail polish covers it all gone, gone
jealousy has got the best of me
tearing through my every being
people they just make me mad
make me question everything i have
it don't matter whose wrong or whose right
could every little thing start a fight?
tonight feels so lonely
the rain is fallin', the rain is fallin'
pouring down my hair and face
do you remember this place?
swing on the swings at the park
it was after dark
then the cops came and we ran home
never knew what love could feel like
until after a night like that night
i was broken, i was broken
runnin through the moonlit sky
i was yours and you were mine
i was yours, but you were...
never saw the signs ahe
Sitting awake in the middle of the night,
just thinkin' 'bout the past.
can't fall asleep 'cause i'm thinkin'
'bout what might have been,
just like every night before.
why couldn't you have been everything you said you'd be?
and why can't i forget the way you looked at me?
tearing out the pages of my mind trying to find
how i could have loved you if you'd
only love me for me
driving around, can't decide what to do.
we went and saw a show for you.
talked about the weather,
what we did that day,
while we smoked Marlboro Lights-
you know that ain't the kind i like
but we walked outside and the rain was poourin'
you took my ha
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"Me"
standing in position,
i'm ready to go.
ready to explore
the inner depths that i know.
wanting to express
what i'm feeling at this point,
i feel an aching, burning
desire in every joint!
the curtain starts to rise,
and they're all revealed to me,
I know that when the music starts
my soul will be set free.
It's time to show them now
what it's really like;
time to reveal the dance"
the dance is fast,
the dance is slow.
time to stop,
time to go.
the dance is free,
the dance is sweet.
the dance is life
the dance is me
once there was a girl
who was hurting inside
who was longing for
somthing more,
something more
Looking to the sky and
crying to the angels
which way is right?
where is my life tonight?
the rain falls from the
star-lit night
a man comes up
to her and says
"child why are you
Crying? wipe the
tears from your eyes
god is calling out
your name
he wants to love you
if you'll ask him to,
please, girl
don't say no"
now this girl isn't hurting
but it teaching to all
those who are
searching for
something more
Sadness. Lonliness, yet I am not alone. Quiet and solemn. I still know not what to do. I am sad. I don't even know what to write. What is the sadness behind the smile? What is happy behind a frown? I find it quite difficult to express myself. I don't know who to love. Who do I trust? Where do I live? Where do I go from here? I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Questions echoing through my mind, and scenarios wander through my eyes, and I am confused. THe possibility that these ongoing dreams become reality, and it's the thought that they could that makes everything so hectic. Things I have to many things, they're all meani
stuck in this house;
stucking this place forever.
The cars race by,
amd people on their bikes
yet still I sit here
waiting, watching,
wishing and wanting.
I say I'll leave one day-
just get up and go,
but the truth is that I'd never go.
Because I'm waiting for you to come back,
and i'm watching to make sure i don't miss anything
i'm wishing that you were here, or even that i was there
and i'm wanting you all over again,
a little more everyday,
and it hurts a little more too
but i'm a little stronger because of you
I've done a lot of things in my life,
and I'm not proud of all of them,
but it was pride that came between me
take me away;
away from here
to a place i cannot fear
a place where only you and i know
i want to go
I WANT TO GO!
make it up;
i don't care;
make believe;
imagine...
tell me where to meet you and i'll be there,
i'll meet you there.
a place where dark and light collide,
a place where it's only you and i.
i wish i could meet you,
know who you are.
are you short, are you tall?
is your hair dark? or is it light?
are you a boy?
are you a girl?
these things, if
Time will never tell the end of my sorrow
Along the broken pieces of my tortured path
Are schardes of glass shining of tomorrow
Will there ever be an end to her wrath
Among the unfortelling lies
She sits alone with only her tears
Can no one hear the echoing cries
Of lonliness dwelling, resounding in her ears
Her eyes are green, beautiful, sad
Her hand stained crimson from the bitter end
Will this be the best she's ever had
Or will her broken heart fail to mend
Chambers of solitude, trapped inside
I there no place for me to go alone?
I'm surrounded by what might have been...
Fickle images displayed for me
Like broken records against the wall
Beauty in its finest form
Rejuvinating lust of higher powers
Humbly marking itself on my face
Is there no place for me to go alone?
Idly passerbys will wait
Fortelling the past and what it brings
But in the shadows of yesterday
Sits tomorrow waiting to attack
Is there no plae for me to go alone?
Among the stories and pictures
Having only your imagination to stride
Along the yellow brick road of life
Seldom it seems that I could sit sill
Hellish fire is drenching
Enough to consume
the swirling sun is singing above
swaying in tune with the angels
surrendering all that it has kept
for millions of treasures are stored
signals of innocence pronounced
as lightly as fluttering pendulums sway
clinging to forces unbeknownst to
the foolish fireflies closest to me
beauty in its sincerest form illuminating
life behold the swirling sun
Current Residence: Orlando Favourite genre of music: anything Favourite photographer: myself Favourite cartoon character: Aquateen Hunger Force Personal Quote: Life has ironic way of reiterating that absolutely nothing is permanent.
SM
older than me
has a car
can hold, and has a job
doesn't live with his parents
has goals
can converse easily with me
that's all i can think of that really matters to me anymore when it comes to finding a mate. i'm so sick of investing my precious time on failed relationships. it's either me (highly possible) or what i'm looking for. i've long since grown out of the whole "bad boy" thing or whatever...i've learned a lot from my lengthy divorce process, and i feel like i possess a better outlook on things. i'm much more open minded, but i'm still weary of being hurt. i want something tangible to grasp onto. when i got married the firs
everything is sticky
everything is sad
wishing for more
there's gotta be
twisted up inside of me
yearning to break free
but i cannot contain the kid inside
she's taking over
the adult is still there
i can hear and see her sometimes
but what i want most
to see clearly again
So Hello to all of you devoted readers in deviantland! As you can infer from my subject title, i am sort-of having a life crisis. i can't really pin point what it is, or what caused it...all i know is that i needed to get the feeling off my chest, so here we are. i just really don't understand life. i know that we're not supposed to understand everything, and everything happens for a reason, but damnit i want to know a few things. i want to feel like i have a purpose here.
thanks. hey i got your message after the fact. i'm going to call you soon. i'm a very busy lady. i hope you're good. thanks for the bday wishes. tell alli i said hi.